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Doings + plans

Gosh… these few days I keep logging in my blog attempting to do something with the settings and all. I’ll then close everything when I think of the consequences of really starts doing it.

What are the consequences?

LOTS of time will be spent on it!

No no no.. cannot do it right now.. 3 weeks away from final exam, I’m supposed to be doing my revision!

What are my plans?

I’m gonna pay for MySQL so that I can use wordpress. Yeap, flatpress is too troublesome and is giving me problems from time to time.

In order to buy the MySQL, I’ve to buy paypal points because I don’t have a credit card.

After buying paypal points to buy the MySQL, there will be time spent on the shifting, which I’m not sure of how big it could be and how much time would be needed.

And.. I’m still unsure of whether I’m gonna get my own domain.

I’ve been enjoying a lot these days. Indulging myself too much that I don’t feel the urgency of the approaching final exam ><

I’m going for my retail therapy tomorrow. Pray hard hard that everyone stays at home except me n my friend, so that the shopping mall will not be so crowded! Hahaha… yea lar, I’m always that ‘dai sai’!! hahaha…

Planning to buy a pair of jeans, some clothes (=P), sis’ yoga mat, groceries and HAF FUN!

你在那

你在那，和堆流氓集聚在一起。

我和两位朋友把另一个朋友送回家。
就在另朋友家前，你和你的朋友出现。
惊讶，你怎么会变成这样？
那眼神，似乎恨不得把全世界的人都消除掉！

莫事情发生，你们殴打那刚下车的朋友。
我和两位朋友呆在车里，无法伸出援手，也无法离开。
我一直都把脸别向左边，望向窗外，
避开你的视线，也避开你堂哥的视线，不想让你发现我。
偷瞄你，却找不到那熟悉的和蔼面孔。

明明交待驾座朋友把门锁上了，其中一个流氓还是把后座的门开了。
后坐就我一个人。。。
我还是倔强的把脸别向左边。。。
变态的流氓不停的问，‘是你吗？昨天那个是你吗？是你拒绝我吗？’
然后。。。他一直逼近我。。。越来越近。。。最终把他的脸贴在我脸上。。。
然后。。。然后他强吻我！
我不停的挣扎，拼命的挣扎。。。
却怎么都无法把他甩开，也没人伸出援手。

我不停的，用力的把头往后压，很用力很用力的压。然后，我就被惊醒了。

天啊！怎么发了个这样的梦？？

你怎么会变成这样?
不是有了她，听说过得幸福？
诶，我怎么在思考没存在的问题啦？
梦里你恶霸，
事实上，你幸福的很。

另一思考。。。
真的吗？你，不再向我伸出援手？
‘曾经’不管用？

哎呀，想什么有的没的问题啦？

不过。。。 那梦。。。 还真恐怖！

我选择相信，是‘无意识’在工作了。
也好，早就该把‘你’解决了！

No relience

I can’t sleep well nowadays again. I kept waking up at the middle, feeling I had to wake up to do something or to avoid something, having frequent dreams if I’m not mistaken. Now I miss the one week period with cool weather, days when I climbed to bed before midnight, slept through the night, and woke up early, so early that I even had the time to sit in front of my laptop to check mail and to read news before my 8.30am class. Aikss.. how come I suddenly feel that it sounds like an old folk’s life? >< hahaha…

I had a ‘nap’ from 7pm to 10pm, and yesh, that was a terribly unstable sleep. Of course lar, nap for so long while I haven’t touch my book at all for tomorrow’s counselling class review and the cross cultural report I told myself to finish today.

Today, I told myself. I’m gonna rely on myself for things; never ever trust that there will be anyone to share. When there’s no expectation in the first place, there will be no disappointment. Disappointment is a terrible feeling for me. I rather torture myself to bear more responsibilities than to feel disappointed.

And I receive a forward email that comes at the right time.

We came across these phrases often as a Chinese reader, too often that we don’t stop and ponder upon the meanings. At times like this, when one’s confused, the thinking come, and they mean a lot.

So… time to look forward and walk… alone… and carefully… with full alertness.

想回家

一架飞机刚从屋顶上飞过。我，想回家。

好气自己

打开它，发现了一些粗心过失。

很生气，真的很生气！
很生气，生气自己无法在紧急状况中保持冷静。

它的发生，我无法避免。
粗心过失，我能避免。

只要，我对自己苛刻点。。。

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SubK 啊。。。你在哪啊？整个周末都没看到你。
很懊恼啊我，需要你呢！~

你看，你对我多重要！

没有你，我没人捣蛋啦！

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我的发泄方式，似乎仅有你懂，你了。><